There are times in everyone’s life where they feel tested. Pushed to a limit. Some hard force that seems like you will not be able to push past. It doesn’t need to be a physical limit though that is what we see mostly in our gym. People coming in and being able to do things they never thought possible. The result is incredible here at Element. It’s empowering to know that you accomplished something you thought you couldn’t. It doesn’t always end that way though – especially when its a mental or emotional challenge.
“If it doesn’t challenge you it doesn’t change you – T.L Sims”
The past couple of weeks have been that challenge for me. I’ve had things going on that left me feeling really drained and exhausted. Trying to get myself to workout was a challenge. Even when I had the time to (which unfortunately wasn’t often), I just didn’t want to. When I did, for lack of better phrasing I felt like I sucked. That I wasn’t performing anywhere near where I wanted to or felt like I could. It was frankly a real downer.
- Nope – never wearing a shirt haha
It was with that that I started thinking about what my goals were; my motivation for things. I sat down with Nick and we started talking about life, all spheres of it. What we wanted, what we knew we didn’t. All of this of course is subject to change but it got me thinking in a more positive frame of mind. When you feel like you have direction you feel less hopeless. I am not that type of person who can wait for things to happen. I need to feel empowered- like I can work towards a goal. And I have plenty, some of them are actually new that I am discovering about myself.
I know I’ve talked about resting and recharging but this was something a little bit different. This was me hitting a low (not a huge one but still) and figuring out what I wanted to do to get out of it. Turning your frame of mind around is a challenging concept but a powerful tool if you can manage it.
So what now? I have some ideas in mind, directions that I want to explore. For one, I think Nick and I are going to trial IIFYM. Pan Ams for me starts this week (did you see that I saw Lisa?!). Plus I’ve been doing a lot of learning that I want to try and see if I can implement (giving you absolutely zero information there). We shall see.
But here’s the thing – now that I feel I have direction, it gives me focus. A path. One that doesn’t exactly seem straight because I’m carving it for myself. But it does involve getting over the pity party and getting my butt into the gym. For the love of it.
Just my ramblings,