By the time I post this blog, I will be in my second trimester. But I wrote these thoughts down in the couple of weeks after finding out that I was expecting. I’m going to do a series of blog posts that document my pregnancy journey. Whenever I’m going through big changes in my life, I seem to have this drive to write things down and so this is the perfect way to do that.
Nick and I had been talking about the “right time” for starting a family. It is the most terrifying and exciting conversation to have. You know that you are making a decision that is going to change your life forever. It didn’t take long for us to realize that this allusive right time that doesn’t really exist. However, this summer we realized that the clinic and gym would be okay if I had to take time off because of a tough pregnancy and I could take a mat leave without financial vulnerability.
In August, we decided that now was our time and we were very fortunate …I got pregnant the first month. We found out the day we got back from our trip to California. When we were away, I thought I might be pregnant, even took a couple of pregnancy tests (one or two were WAY too early but I was excited!), but it wasn’t until we got home that it was confirmed.
The moment that test says “Yes!” is the most unreal experience. Nick stared up at the ceiling for probably 30 minutes. So many emotions go through your head and your heart. You feel elated, excited, scared, shocked and in a state of disbelief.
The hardest part for Nick and I? Not saying anything!
If you know us at all, we’re open books! Haha! We share our lives with our gym and our community. Not saying anything as I started to develop symptoms (I swear I didn’t get plastic surgery – its pregnancy!), as the news sunk in, as we went for our first doctor’s appointment and the pregnancy was confirmed, was so difficult. The reasoning behind the secrecy is obvious but it doesn’t make it any easier. I became super insecure. My body bloated instantly. I think I was staying too lean for my body and this pregnancy. Because of that, as soon as my hCG started rising, so did my bloat! Something that I am definitely not used to.
I’m a very fast-moving individual. Twelve to 14 hour days are not abnormal for me. For the first several weeks, I didn’t even feel like myself. My brain was overtaken by one single sentence “I’m pregnant”. It was all I could think about. Nothing else. Couldn’t say anything but I was super distracted. Eventually the news sunk in and I was doing okay. I began feeling a bit more normal. There’s actually a lot of times during my first trimester that other than the bloat, I didn’t even really feel pregnant! I plan live courses and conferences far in advance and I had to think of excuses for why I couldn’t go to these in April through June.
Sharing this news is so much more fun now that I’m out of the woods. I’m pregnant with one of my best friends who is 5 weeks ahead of me. It is literally every girls dream!
Is there anything you guys want to hear about? Updates or workouts? Being a physiotherapist is a huge advantage for this pregnant lady. I can’t wait to share this journey with you!